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Okie dokes…I guess I took another month hiatus on my blog but here I am again writing my soul (and fingers)away lol xD…anywaysss…soo iw as thinking and todays topic is kind of a weird one, this is mostly cause there is a lot on my mind and my emotions are a buzzing away so it's a lil hard to think straight (not that I ever do xP heheh I mean lets this gay ya'll lol) with all this going on in my head….plus as you all know, most of my blogs are written in one straight shot so I don't proofread them and I don't check for errors and wat not…this gives it more of a sense of me just talking than an actual written piece, plus if you guys know me (which you probably do, or else why would you be reading my blog duhhh) then you probably know how I would say all these things hehe…anywhooo okie to todays topic uhmmm….okie I guess wat I can call it is fear?.....hmmm is it fear..well yeah, but wat I mean by that is, fear of trying, fear of succeeding, fear of greatness…

Okie this is where my "fear mentality" came from….sooo I have these friends right…okie i wont say any names but lets call them chick 1 and chick 2….okie soo chick 1 is like an amazing singer right (sorry I sound like a total valley girl but just bare with me) and everybody knows it, she can knock ur socks off with her powerhouse vocals, and make most American idol contestants look like grade school amatures…seriously…just amazing…anywaysss all of my friendship with her I have told her these exact same words, and those privileged enough to hear her, can share in my enthusiasm…the problem with this though is that she doesn't believe it… she doesn't think she is any good….because of this she doesn't persue her singing more…my thoughts though…are that she is scared of being amazing…she has all the potential in the world…if only she would use it…

I heard this quote in akeelah and the bee and it really made me think of this "Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. We ask ourselves, Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous? Actually, who are you not to be? We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us. And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same."

Now on to my second friend…chick 2…okiee so this girl…she is uhh lets say NOT average looking…(well all my friends are beautiful goddamn you Asians and beauty!!!)….anywayss my friend is pretty she is smart and shes Filipino so she can also sing…gahh shes like the total package you know?...anywayss she is always telling me that she wants a BF and stuff like that…however she also says she has commitment issues…herein lies the problem for me….here I have this amazing friend, who, if she wants, can have an amazing bf, and an amazing relationship…but is scared of wat might happen…she doesn't believe relationships can work and thus doesn't want to fail…or maybe worse than that, she doesn't want to be proved wrong =/…this is wat saddens me the most…

Okay so I have explains both of my dilemmas with my friends…soo how do we solve this fear?...well first…we must look into ourselves and see that there is nothing to be scared of!....we should see that we all have potential inside, and when we choose to unleash is, we can all succeed…2^nd we shouldn't let others bring down our self esteem and raise our fear…we already have enough shit going on in our lives…bad influences just screw it up more…and finally don't be afraid to take the chances…if we aren't willing to risk, how can we expect to succeed?....you have to try, and maybe even fail a couple times…but getting back up is just as important..we must break free of this fear and start living life to the fullest <3

Okieee im done =] I hope you liked it xD…okie it was really random and not one of my best ones, but I promise my next one will be better!! I gots an idea already in the works =] hehe byeee